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Que si? or Que no?

lol

I tried ... tell me what you think about it.

I shoulda been doing homework but I think something was missing to my blog :/

No professional...but yea.. lol

Tooo bad I dont know a person about to graduate with a degree in graphic design ..

hint hint !! lol

After your senior project i'll bug you..lol

Pain makes man think. Thought makes man wise. Wisdom makes life endurable.

I've open and closed this page ... wondering what I should write, how I should write it or if it even should be written ..

I have sooo much to say but it all seems sooo foolish ... Free write perhaps? I doubt it'll make sense but here's a personal cleansing of the mind...

Life.. love.. relationships.. work..
Maybe I'm just making a big deal out of it.. who knows.
I don't know what I want .. but I want you to know.
I know it shouldn't be but everything else is telling me yes...

The way I treat you isn't only unfair to you but unfair to myself, especially my sanity...
I come across one way but I'm full of much much more emotion .. deceit perhaps..

deceitful...lonely...sad....fullfilled...happy..
liar, truthful, arrogant, emotional ... emotionless

Mixed up and uncertain .. Happy but aware of the good ol' saying
"what goes around comes around"
and fearful of that day, trying to make sense of the actions that are taking place...wondering why I'm doing this...why you're doing it...
is it worth it or is it not?

am I going to get bitten in the butt twice as hard...do I deserve it ? is it even coming?
I like the walls.. lets go back to the walls.. let me go back to childhood when life was sooo much more simple...when my biggest worry was cooties and whether or not my mom washed my favorite shirt..

It wont make sense.. I wish I can just say what I'm feeling but its way tooo much .. too intense.. maybe I'm just scared to hear it out loud... scared of who I become.. I'm not a bad person .. rather a person I always admired from a far... but now that I have taken on the attitude of the person I always wanted to be.. I feel like I lost myself.. I feel like its a big show ... or maybe its who I become now...is their a chance to start over?

Theirs always a chance for change.. its just becoming strong enough to endure it...I don't think I'm there yet..

Being busy is knowing that you have a life :]

Sorry chickes I haven't posted something good in FOREVER!

Life ='s work, school and gym PLUS I've been super sick lately so haven't really been in the mood to sit and write. :]

I'm in dyer need of a shopping trip.. I need dresses and dresses and T's to wear on casual days. I want it to start getting slightly warmer already and not sooo cold. BUT when summer comes i'll long for it to get cold again. I'm never happy. lol

If you hear of any online sales let a girl know :] haha.

Anywhoo.. shout out to my two lovely sisters. They both received AWESOME grades this quarter! Both got all "A"'s and uno "B"!! I'm super proud of both of them..
I smell John Incredible Pizza in our future girls!! lol

Hope all is well with all my readers!!
xoxo
Megan

Eh

I don't like the new follower box :[

Eh.

BUT i don't really care for sudden change either

lol

Excercise by Death

I think I've heard it all..

Headlines read:
"Trans gender Wife Kills Husband".

According to Fox a Trans gender(why does her being transgender even matter?) (wo)man exercised her husband to death. Apparently she pulled him around the pool by his hands and feet and didn't let him catch his breath. He eventually died of a heart attack.

Seriously, what is going threw your head when you're dragging a man around in the water?!

Click here for the surveillance video.
We live in a scary time. :/
xoxo
Megan

T-shirt Love

I found this online store pretty tight. Bunch of T's and hoodies designed by different artist. Some are out there .. others are witty and most are pretty tight.
Check it out

My Morning Conversation :[

Friend: Rise and shine beautiful :]
Me: :[ Im running late
Friend: Why the sad face Jonica?
Me: cause IM LATE!
Friend: But shouldn't you be used to that :/ haha
Me: Dick

What a jerk, huh? lol. Its true ... but still ...
&& I wasn't THAT late. I got to work 10mins early
Thanks to the Toll Roads
lol

I'm a-dic, im addicted to yoooou ...

Sooo I think I'm addicted to this stupid "Flava Craze" ChapStick in "Fruit Craze" flavor .. lol


-I actually threw out the grape(purple cap) one.. Ew.
-The Green capped one is the "Fruit craze" one which is at my desk currently. The one in which I can't stop putting on!!
-The pink cap is yummy too and in my car somewhere.. lol

Can you die from toooo much chapstick?

-google search- "death from chapstick" Nothing.
-google search- "have people died from too much chapstick?" Still nothing, but super weird blogs about addiction to it. :/

For now I will assume its safe. If I suddenly die of unknown reason make sure they check my blood for chapstick overdose. :[

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I hate Fridays at work...I have to hustle and get all the work I didn't do during the week done :/
When will I learn? :[
BUT work gossip is sooo fun.


Have a good weekend.

xoxo
Megan

I love picnics

At least people at the gym wont wonder why i'm there...

Its cause "I love Picnics"

Company picnic shirt. :[ Only thing clean. .

Super embarrassing

haha

Filipino Thing?

Sooo today ... Jersey's mom told him "You're not getting any younger" after talking about school ..

My dad told me this the other day too.

She's Filipino, my dad's Filipino ... Connection?

Hmmmm...

Love && Lust

I find it funny how the concept of love and lust works.

I think people have gotten confused over the difference of the two. Don't get me wrong, I have as well. I'm by no mean perfect. Extreme opposite if that. It just seems soo much more common now than in the old days or perhaps I just notice it now as I get older.

Lets take a look at the definitions:

lust:
[luhst]
noun
1. intense sexual desire or appetite.

love
[luhv]
noun, verb, loved, lov·ing. noun
1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

The first definition is taken from each word. It seems that one implies more a physical attraction while the other implies a more emotional connection. I'm a firm believer of "Lust at first sight" but the one I have a little trouble with is "Love at first sight". I don't believe in love at first sight. I think its a fairytale concept that has made its way into the mainstream world today.

Back to the main idea of the confusion of the two. I know many people who have married within the first few months of knowing each other. I hardly think thats enough time to get to know a person. You're in love with the idea of them. Trust i've been in love with the idea of someone too.. The idea that they are hardworking, going somewhere in life ... faithful. But actions didn't reflect it. I'm soo sure a person has fallen in love with the idea of me. But like I said i'm not perfect and I have my very own quirks.

I think love is accepting a persons imperfections. Learning a persons reactions, skills, interest, desires, goals, quirks etc...and loving them despite it all. Idealistic. Probably. Is their really one perfect person for everyone? Were we really made to mesh well with only ONE other person in this whole world? Who knows..

&& doesn't always seem you when a person wants you, you dont want them ... but when you realize you want them they're over you.

Sadness...

Emo status.. haven't had one in awhile
xoxo
Megan

Happy Tuesday & welcome back from a long weekend!

Maybe topic of the night could have done without a story.. eh.. what's done is done. :]
side note: I wasnt trying to put anyone out there, hence no names, just created a story line help aid discussion. :] Nuff of that.

Sooo I have an essay do in class today. -sigh-
I haven't been to gym in like 4 days and I must go. I feel like a fatty. :/

Luckily I didn't have a 3 day weekend to get all this done. -sarcasm- lol
All I felt like doing yesterday, the day I planned on getting things done, was sleeping...the rain has that effect on me. . . I did hit the mall tho. alone. haha. I really just wanted to go to the CCO but failed to find anything I liked. If Kat was there I would be in debt now, luckily she wasn't.

-eh- enough of the stalling, must work and squeeze in essay writing time. :]

xoxo
Megan

To tell or not to tell

I'm sure we've all been faced with the issue on whether to tell a person the truth or not...Do we tell them in hopes they'd listen? Do we let it go and let that person never know the truth?its super complicated. Do we just say something to let it be known? Even tho it seems sooo easy

Here's my story:

Back in High School I talked to this guy.. No biggie .. I was like in 11th grade he was a bit older Out of High school I think. I guess when we were "talking"(if you call it that) he was talking to this other girl. This girl got a hold of my number and started talking crap on how he was with her..blah blah blah.. After that I confronted him and told me it was some crazy ex- and he really like me, blah blah same ol' guy story. I got over it.. it kept happening so I decided to end it. I cut off all communication with him. He begged back(of course, haha). She called a few more times after .. but I figured I was over it and she will be too...
A few months later I believe he started texting me and what not. I didn't see no harm it so I would text back. He was going through problems with school so I would try to help him out. He was trying to get into a baseball program, I even called coaches on his behalf. He always told me he still liked me but I didn't pay attention to it. He had already showed me he wasn't worthy so I only saw him as a friend.
THAN out of nowhere the SAME girl came back around, this time talking about how they were going to get married blah blah ... all on friggin myspace mind you ... I told her EVERYTHING he had told me. I felt, at the time, it was the right thing to do. If I was about to marry a guy I would want to know what was going on as well. I cited text messages(Him saying he loved me and stuff WTF right?) and I still came out the bad guy. It was like I was suppose to know what he was hiding.

Long story short, I told her what he did...she pretty much told me that he would never do that and I was jealous and blah blah blah.

First of all .. Why would I be jealous of a girl who was getting played? Second why would I waste my time making up this elaborate stories ? I could honestly care less what is happening in your life, I have my own problems to worry about.

Point of the story .. Would you listen to a girl (me?) telling you "the love of your life" isn't who you think he is ? Should I had even said anything in the first place ?

I guess when you're in love you're blind to everything else. . . I just truly feel sad for this girl .. It would break my heart to know a guy, my guy(!), is saying he loved another girl when we were "happily in love".

Blah.

Anywhoo, this all came up 'cause oh girl myspaced me and asked "are you done with this drama?" or some extent of that. (Mind you this was when I was like 16. 4.5 effin years ago.)

Honey Bunches, Their was never any drama. :] I was just looking out for a fellow female. I'd hate for a guy to do me that way.

UPDATE ON HER:
(We all love these)

I guess they got married and had a baby or some ish like that.. lol.. That's what I got from the space...(yes I did accept her friend request, I have nothing to hide. lol) I hope he stopped playing his games tho, especially since theirs a baby involved.

It makes me feel kinda special that I was in someones head for sooo long who was no where near mines. :]

This was super long, I know, I just thought it would be a good topic!

xoxo
Megan

Treadmill Accident

I've been debating writing this story for awhile. lol.

(I'm actually cracking up thinking about how I'm going to write this.)

Anywhoo, short story, I fell off the treadmill at the gym. lmfao.

Pictures :[

Please don't judge me on my leg..concentrate on the bruise not anything else. lmao

This happened about three weeks ago...Whenever super bowl Sunday was..

I was at the Riverside Gym(I usualy hit a different one in Tustin) so the machines were a bit different to work...anyways,

I was jogging on the treadmill .. doing my thing..bumpin LMFAO "I am not a whore" and my towel falls! Not the worst part...

Sooo... i "stop" the machine..or so I thought and BAM

I hit the edge of the still running treadmill with my knee! lol.

Im soooo embarrassed I jump back up. I had just started my work out soo I didn't think it was a good idea to stop...It'll make me look worse, so I just got back on and ran my butt off..laughing the whole time. My knee hurt sooo bad but I was too embarrassed to stop. lol

Sadness:[

Afterwards a guy who had saw me fall came up to me and said.."At least you looked cute falling".

haha.

xoxo

Funniness

Text Message of the day .. .. .. ..

Kat: Megan, I think im stuck in the elevator
Me: Wat? Are you okay?
- - - Couple of minutes go by - - -
Kat: Wait, never mind, I didn't press the button for it to move.

LMAO hahahahahahahahahahahaha

She literally stood in the elevator.. had time to text me and THAN realized she didn't press the button. hahahahaha I love her. :]

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Cutest story of the day .. .. .. ..
My uncle and aunt were talking in the living while the kids were playing. My uncle asked my aunt how does the roll over minutes work(they had just switched to AT&T im guessing). She replied, "I dont know". My cousin Jasmin asked "What are roll over minutes?". Littlest cousin Jaden says, with a matter of fact voice, "Its those little orange clocks!" He was dead serious.

hahahahha... I love it. :]
Kids say the darnest things.

xoxo
Megan

Valentine's Day <3

I love Valentine's Day :]

You get pretty cupcakes that make you fat.

xoxo

: /

Am I shaking 'cause its cold...

or is it that feeling you get when you find out something you didn't want to know.

Either way I dont like it.

This is how the last one started out.

:[

g'night

xoxo

Megan

Frost Days

Frost Days in Ca :]

Soooo the past few mornings I have been waking up to this delight. :]

Being a California type of girl I had noooooo idea how to get the ice off. Who woulda thought spraying the water hose on the ice would work. :/

Flowers

Co-worker received flowers the other day, randomly. She has nooo idea who theyre from. Can you say scary stalker secret admirer? lol. Its a sweet gesture but super scary.. its been about 3 days and no one has confessed to sending them. hmmm...

Soooo if you want to send me flowers just make sure to include your name. That way no complaints are made. :] haha

HINT HINT :P

xoxo
Megan

Random Me

Its weird how someone can be on your mind forever ... than when you finally clear them of your thoughts they pop right back up again. Like they know you stopped thinking about them or something. haha

A life changing decisions maybe taking place sooon...More details when I ... well make a decisions. Lol. But a decisions must be made sooooooon! In my dads words, "you're not getting any younger" lmao.

So much to tell..I need to find the time. :]
Random line of the day:
To [Him]
"Can I be a princess? A queen makes me sound old."

Jersey needs to get on Ca's level already.

xoxo
Megan

Lines Of the Day

"We sure shop a lot for broke people" - Kat Hua

While walking across the boarder back to the states from Mexico
Boarder Patrol: "Where are you headed?"
Sister: -Blank stare-
- - Luckily she doesnt look Mexican - -

Me: (Text) "I wanna see LMFAO"
Kat: -Nothing-
Me: "yea? lol"
Kat: "You're sending me random ass shit"
Me: "? I wanna see LMFAO"
Kat: "Im so lost right now. I dont get what ur saying. lol."
-Dead-

The West

Megan & the ... well West.

In English were discussing "The [boring as can be] Virginian". Its about the old mythological/ideal west. We began talking about the different themes, the traditional cowboy and the importance of names. Somehow Riverside got brought up...I was only half paying attention at this time but I think it was being compared to the OC in the sense that we still have cows and horses there. [Reminder, I live in Riverside and go to school in the Orange County]. At first I was a bit offended, why? Im not too sure...I guess I've been commuting and spending more time out there than in Riverside that I kinda.. maybe a little bit...forgot where I came from. (lmao, that sounds totally cliche)

But after the comment about Riverside, I remembered just how "Western" I was.
When I was young, my grandpa took me to Target to go buy my first pair of cowboy boots. They had stitching on the side of a cactus and a cowboy hat. I cried when the chicken came and pecked a hole in them. :*( After school my sister, my cousin and I would have to come home and feed the chickens and give our pony(yes a PONY) and the goats hay. I use to go riding in the mountains with my grandpa 'till it got super late and my mom would come pick me up after she got off of work.

Its funny how some things can trigger such emotion and memories. :]

I need to find pictures! :]

Ideas?!

Soooo Im downloading music...&& I just decided I need more gym songs to make me get up and gooooo...Push me to the limit on the treadmill!

Any ideas?!

Please and thanks.

xoxo

Megan

Bed Time

I've decided to give myself a strict bed time of 10:00pm on the weekdays [If I get home early enough from school.]

Therefore I will be silencing my cellular device and not texting nor answering calls.

Please please please dont send me hate messages.. haha.. some of you have been mean.. Im a busy girl with a lot going on right now. :]

..Work
..School
..Gym
..Homework

Speaking of gym ... Yesterday I was on the eleptical trying to get my stupid cardio done. The Laker game was on [Celtics V Lakers] so I got the machine right next to the TV. Bad idea..Intense game..[[DUH]] so their were like five guys right behind me trying to watch the game..Even though they weren't paying attention to me they probably saw all my sweat and grossness.. ahaha.. They literally stood standing there for 20 minutes.

:[ Ew.

Anywhoo...No talking after 10. So get in what you have to say before then.
:]

xoxo
Megan

Gym Head

I've become a gym head. :]

I live there and love it. lol. Its been roughly only a month, hahahaha, but I hope I can keep it up. I only have 129 more days 'till I turn 21!!!!!!!!!! So I have to work on my fitness. I don't wanna be buldgy in my super fitted dresses. :] lol

While being there I learned a lot about the different types of people that go to the gym. I have accumulated a list, but please feel free to add.

1. The "macho" im here to stare at girls butts guys: They're usually on the machines behind the treadmill. Always smiling at you when they get the chance. Sitting around talking to their buddies. They usually only begin to work out when they notice someone staring at them.

2. The work out diva: Im secretly jealous of these girls. They come to the gym in their cutest attire ... BUT do nothing. They walk the treadmill at a slow pace and usually on the phone somehow texting or even talking on it. I am always tempted to take my phone into the gym but I know its just a distraction so I leave it in the car. lol.

3. Super go get it girl: This is that girl who runs forever and ever, NEVER stopping. I hope to work up to become this type of women. :] You check her stats and she's like at 10miles running at 5.8 still. Super jealous. :] I envy her. haha

4. Mr. Super hot macho: This is the guy who smiles at you cause you got caught staring. lol. The one you want to sit behind you on the treadmill but is super into his fitness. lmao. Those come rare, but when they do it excites you. haha

Lastly, theirs me. The ones who are there not looking cute, nor looking bummy...just there to get a work out and notice the quirks of everyone else. :]

I'm sure theirs a million more types...but if I name them all, ill just be stereotyping. hahaha.
Feel free to add to the list.

xoxo

Super bowl was great yesterday! Its sooo exciting but if only I knew what the heck was going on. haha. You would think that by me cheering for so many years in HS I would get it, but I don't. lol

Prime Example:

TV: -Referee calls Safety-
Announcer: A safety hasn't been called in superbowl since blah blah blah
Everyone: omg ... wow ... Thats crazy ... etc
Me: What's going on? Why did they get two points ... someone explain !!
Everyone: Still in shock -ignoring me!-
Me: GEEEEEZ I wish I knew what a safety is, it seems like such a big deal !

Finally they explained it to me .. lol && yea it is a pretty big deal! lol

I was able to follow the game decently...Was the Steeler's player named Holmes who made the last touch down? That was super amazing. I got soooo excited for him...but felt sooo sad for the other team. lol Especially that guys wife they kept cutting away too.
Touchdown guy looked so pretty falling after the TD.. lol.


Like A ballerina :]
Just a crazy and exciting game. Hope you enjoyed it!
xoxo

Graduation

La Verne had a 2009 graduation yesterday and i'm proud to say that my Tia was involved. Officially class of 2009!! woot woot.

One of the speakers was talking about the influence teachers can have on a students life. As he was talking I began to ponder peoples influences on each other as a community. Sometimes you never know how much you may influence a person whether its a best friend, sibling, parent or a total stranger. Many people have influenced me and of course made me who I am.

My advice today is just be who you are and try to treat people the way you expect to be treated. TRUST ME I know its hard. Everyone has their off days, but you never know who is looking up to you and learning from the way you are and interact.

WELLLL congrats Auntie!!!! I love you and i'm sooooo proud of you!
Here's some pictures from yesterday.

My Aunt & her son

My sisters, me & my auntMy grandpa & my Granny

It makes me want to hurry and graduate already!! lol

xoxo